Thanks Kerrie. If we were supposed to be only ever happy, I’m sure we wouldn’t have so many other emotions available to us. It’s living from the full spectrum of emotions, intentionally and bravely, that makes us whole. So I say, leave happiness for the emoticons, choose wholeness instead.

Dear Georgia
Thank you for your email. It moved me.
I cannot imagine the journey of grief you have travelled but I can tell that you have gone right through the raw heart of it and emerged all the stronger, wiser and deeper.
Keep doing what you are doing. There are so many who need to lean on you, and see that they too can move through their own.
Thank you again and stay in touch.
Wishing you a loving Christmas,
Margie

So fitting that you should send me this message today as I ponder my son Deacon who would’ve been 6 today.

In a few months I will be feeling the same way about a little girl Hannah who also left me too soon. The nurse said I was 1 in over 200,000 odd chance that still birth should happen to me consecutively.

I don’t know why I was chosen, but out of such tragedy a stronger and newer person has been forged and I have found my purpose in the world to serve. Had I not experienced such grief I would probably be a stay at home mum in sweat pants all day watching soap operas and not wanting anything more., now I’m taking risks and making sacrifices to carve out a tribe of women who need me and I’m breaking down walls to become the very best version of myself.

Now that’s what I call freaking courage. Letting go of the bitterness, anger, shame, resentment, humiliation as a woman unable to do what my body was designed to do. and saying ‘take your best freaking shot life, I’m still here and I’m still smiling.

Sincerely,

Georgia